Sunday, April 7, 2013

I can trust

Earth, isn't this what you want? To arise in us, invisible?
Is it not your dream, to enter us so wholly
there's nothing left outside us to see?
What, if not transformation,
is your deepest purpose? Earth, my love,
I want it too. Believe me,
no more of your springtimes are needed
to win me over—even one flower
is more than enough. Before I was named
I belonged to you. I see no other law
but yours, and know I can trust
the death you will bring.

See, I live. On what?
Childhood and future are equally present.
Sheer abundance of being
floods my heart.

— Rainer Maria Rilke, From the Ninth Duino Elegy

[photo: pansy seedlings.]


  1. i consider your seedlings and i shake my head not able to comprehend.

    forgive me, the other day i had a pustule on my chin. i pressed upon rather enjoying the pain of it. where on earth do such things come from? how is it possible? ordinary miracles. i carried inside me a knowledge that once it broke i would be free of pain. it seemed to me so similar to an orgasm, to the stuff that we make human lives from.

    once in the summer i remember breaking the stem of a wild weed. it wept.

    my step father and son gathered buckets of sap from trees last weekend. my son brought home a pitcher of raw sap. i had a small glass full, the reminiscence of something... once the other sap had been boiled off my mother (with her poor wrists - the very bones that grew from the weeping of her father and mother) poured a mason jar full of golden liquid. i have been eating that by the spoonful, my mouth flooding, my mind full of wonder.

    i hold my children while their father and i are divorced, forever separated.

    i do not understand and yet i shake my head in absolute wonder. whatever it is, it breaks through the soil time and time again and demands to be.


  2. "The sheer abundance of being" - Yes, that's what it is, Life arising in us in every moment, and the awareness and acceptance of how that life is being lived in every moment... Freedom...


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